Monday, August 07, 2006

progress, not perfection..

We alcoholics are a funny bunch, at least, I think we are. Here I am posting Sunday morning about all this peace, and a wonderful lead, and serenity in the face of stress, change, chaos and so forth. As I was posting yesterday morning, Ian kept coming in every 2 minutes to ask if I would play with him. At first, it didn't really bother men, but he just kept at me all morning... Before you know it, I am all bitchy and annoyed, and had to spend alot of the day trying not to lose my temper with him or my wife, feeling all out of sorts, even after a wonderful trip to church where the Homily made reference to a friend of Fr. Tom's who was filled with peace and serenity, only to discover that this person was an recovering alkie and he wasn't always this marvellous picture of peace. Oh, the irony... A classic example of "this too shall pass." Yes it works for good moods as well as it does for bad moods, he he. All in all, no damage done, just a bit of an out of sorts type of day... Today I am feeling a bit better. But, the steady erosion of my financial resources is at times wearing on me just a little bit. Tonite, I meet with our Deacon to begin the process of becoming Catholic and joining the Church.

Ah yes, weigh in day! Let's see; since week 1 at 255 lbs, I have slowly and steadily lost a little weight. Here we are at week 5, I weighed in at 244.5 lbs this morning. So, we're into double digit weight loss, that's good. I've been able to do it without going all militant on what I eat, or how much I work out. I am certainly in no danger of pushing the edge of the physical envelope, where my exercise routine is concerned! Like they say, progress rather than perfection. Also, a side note, my friend Suz asked is she could e-mail me sometime... ANYONE who would ever want to develop further a relationship in recovery, is MORE THAN WELCOME to e-mail me anytime. I would love to get to know any and/or all of you better!
scottf @nktelco.net or smfloan@yahoo.com.

Prayer for the day:

God/HP, whew, thank you for the Gift of continued sobriety. I would have nothing if it were not for Your Grace in my life today. Thank you God for my family, my friends in and out of recovery, and for blogagge and Your wonderful children I've met here. God, I could use some more of that freedom from fear of economic insecurity, so I have a proposal... I am going to continue to try to focus my efforts on being of service to others, eys even where my business is concerned, and You could maybe continue to bless me with the faith and knowledge that no matter what ever happens, I have You in my life, a great wife, kid doggie and family, and everything will always be ok. Knowing this in my heart of hearts gives me the strength and courage to continue on, one foot in front of the other, relatively worry free. Thank you HP for this gift of Grace and Faith. I pray that I never forget.

peace to y'all...

10 comments:

Designer Girl said...

Awesome prayer attitude, Scott. And I'll keep you in mine. We, too, are feeling the waning resources effect, so every time I start to get freaked out, I'll try to turn that around and pray for you instead (no promises, but I WILL try!).

Shannon said...

hey there scotty
I can relate when trying to do something and not getting a chance to and getting irritable... LOL
I think for me when I get like that its because I feel robbed of "my time" and sometimes I am! LOL welcome to parenthood right?? and its ok, we all just do the best we can... some days are better than others... I know what works for me, is setting time and letting my hubby and the kids know I am going to take some time for me... and sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesnt... but its still hard...
anyway... check out the topic on sobriety society... its sooo good.

Gwen said...

I Love IT!!!! Reid is constantly coming into my office and I try soooo hard to stop what I am doing and look at him and listen. It is the same stuff over and over. Stuff about some monster or ogre in his game. It means a lot to him when I stop and listen but after awhile it does get old. I have to reread everything because I am constantly being distracted.

Peace back at cha...

Mary Christine said...

Little kids are a trial. It sounds like you do a good job. If we were happy all the time, it would just feel normal and what fun would that be?

dAAve said...

I love the "whew" in your prayer.

NMAMFQLMSH said...

I've missed you Scott.
I see you too,
JJ

Rex said...

I love the Prayer. You always help me to see those nasty patterns of old behaviors.....thanks, Rexie

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