Tuesday, January 16, 2007

feeling good

I like feeling good. Who doesn't? This morning I awoke, still fighting that dastardly sinus infection/cough thing... But, I feel good. Sure, I got a sin/character defect or two to discuss and make up for. I got some stress going on with the slow start to the year at work. Yeah, my wife's quitting smoking for the 3rd or 4th time (which aint really about me at all, but it does set a certain mood around the house). Sure, we have a 5 yr old who's a wild child, super duper high energy, and we're somewhat sedentary people who like our quiet and our space. And yes, I have to keep going to the gym and continue to eat less of what I love and more of what's good for me. But, that's just life stuff. The stuff I've learned to handle without drinking or even exhibiting destructive behavior.

The positive side of my ledger... I can fight off a sinus infection, even carry around the symptoms for an extended period of time and not get truly "sick." I am willing to look at my sins/CD's and there's forgiveness awaiting me when I am ready to let go of them once and for all. I have a nice little business, and a job to go to. My wife's quitting smoking... Hell, I have a wife, and a pretty damn wonderful one at that. Oh, and then there's the miracle that is Ian... I adore him, and his insanity. And well, I GET to work out, I am healthy enough to work out and smart enough to know what to eat and what not to eat. And, I am motivated to continue to improve along those lines. ( I had a kick ass workout last nite, didn't want to stop...)

hmmm, now wait a minute... the stuff that could be perceived as "negative" in my life is the same stuff that could be perceived as "positive..." it would seem that stuff is just stuff. The important thing is my attitude, and how I see my stuff. It seems to work best if I drop words like "good," "bad," "positive," & "negative" and just focus on "is," "be" and "am." Yes, it seems that after all, attitude is the difference. So, why is it that I feel so good, with all this "negative" stuff to get tripped up over? I maintain a conscious contact with HP/God/JC throughout the day. I read spiritual books that I can learn and grow from. I share my stuff with bloggers and they with me. I get to meetings. I live with a recovering alcoholic and most of my friends are drunks/addicts. Mostly though, I try to live God's Will for me once in awhile. And I am a firm believer in the idea that living rightly gives good results. All of this is thanks to AA and my HP. I don't know if I could ever re-pay (not that God needs repayment) or show my gratitude enough. I guess living sober and trying to be a good guy and grow, and be of service is probably what's needed to show my gratitude.

How does that quote go? "Life is God's gift to us. What we do with that life is our gift back to God..." hmm, there's one I better think about!

Prayer for the day...

God/JC/HP please help me stay sober today and give me the strength and faith not to give in to my selfish, self centered desires and thoughts. Thank You for the inspiration last evening as I exercised. I defeinitely felt as if there were something beyond my normal motivation taking place. (it could've been the Alanis Morisette I was listening to on my MP3 player, who knows?) God help me to be calm and peaceful today, especially at home, that I might not stomp on my pife's jangled nerve endings today. God, I pray for Your Will and Grace for my friend Shannon and her dad. Help me to be of service to You and those about me today.


Peace be with you all...

4 comments:

A Tampa Realtor said...

Great prayer Scott, good points to on the whole powerlessness thing.

dAAve said...

Nice post Scott.
There was something missing though.
hmmmmmmmm what could that be?

Noor Azman Othman GBE said...

Ameeen!

To your happiness, and greeting, all the way from Malaysia.

Pam said...

that was a good positive read for me this evening scott.....thanks.