With my busy schedule these days, I've allowed my home office to become an endless series of piles of books and papers, stuff "I will get to later." So, it's time to go thru the stacks, purge and organize. I have to do this every so often. It's just one of those things that happens when you get too many little things going on at once. It's also my job to clean the shower so that's on the list today as well. And, Ian and I have to finish up his Pinewood Derby car this weekend as well. I am just glad there's no where I have to be, nothing I have to do this weekend. These are few and far between. It'll be 110% family time this weekend!
I am also going to take some time for prayer and meditation. I saw a really nice candle set up on another blog I follow occasionally and I think I might set up something similar for myself. She uses this candle arrangement as a means to pray and meditate and I think it might be helpful for me to do the same. I have difficulty sometimes, quieting my mind without some sort of external assistance (music, candles, guided meditation, etc.). Hopefully something like this might help. I always seem to function better when I make time to get quiet and meditate a bit on a consistent basis.
Now that I met with the doc this past Monday and got my prescriptions refilled, I have been able to take the proper dosage of my anti-dpressant and I can feel things balancing and calming again. I really don't like the idea of having to rely on some kind of drug to feel better but dammit when I begin to "wean off" of those things, I get really edgy and my mind races. It's awful. So, I guess it is what it is, I am just thankful that there is medicine out there that can help. I just need to be more careful about managing my prescriptions that I don't get so close to running out. They say in the program that sometimes we need to seek professional, medical and psychological help and they weren't kidding.