Saturday, April 10, 2010

sharing a lil gratitude...

The Reds won a thriller last nite and we all sat and watched it together, that was way kool! It's wonderful, having baseball back on TV again! Here in a little bit, Ian and I are off to baseball practice (I even found a pair of grey w/navy pinstripe baseball pants for myself!). It's gonna be a chilly pracitce, got a pretty good frost last nite!

Emotional sobriety is important to me today. I am in a place in my life where drama and conflict have lost their appeal. Things don't get to me like they used to. Don't get me wrong, I still get angry, exceed my limits, etc. But I don't over react to things all the time like I used to. I'm not depressed, seeing everything "half empty." I am thankful for this change in me over the years. I know this change has come because of the relationship that has developed between God and me. Serenity and peace are important to me. Helping others, especially youth has become very important to me, and very enjoyable for that matter.

Professionally, I have a strong sense that something good is going to come of my job with the Chamber. I am "in front of" a lot of local and regional business people. I get to write in the paper, blog, facebook, twitter. I am in the public eye using my sales, marketing and communication skill, building my "chops" so to speak. I put together and host events, work with local businesses to promote them, help smaller businesses and start-ups to get going. I love it! And, so far, I have been getting a very positive response to my efforts and the results we're getting at the Chamber with all of the new things we've put in place. I feel good professionally, for the first time in a long time. I haven't felt this good since opening my mortgage company in the spring of 2006, six months before the whole mortgage thing blew up. (who knew that was coming? lol)

I guess what I am trying to say is that I am grateful today to be in such a place. It's almost odd to be saying that because we continue to eat thru what had been intended for our retirement, in order to keep the lights on and pay down the debt I accrued opening the mortgage company. I don't make enough money right now. My marriage is still in jeopardy as my wife continues to struggle mightily with her negativity about almost everything, and I continue to have difficulty dealing with that (and here we had been doing so well, seems like we're back to squeare one right now). I am still overweight and struggling with even wanting to work out. But ya know what? I have hope. I have optimism. I have gratitude, and I have faith that God will make everything the way it is supposed to be. Heck, things ARE the way they are supposed to be right now and not only do I accept things the way they are, I am going with them, embracing them, doing all I can to make a good life for us. It feels good!

Today is a good day, they all are! It's just up to me to take that positive attitude into everything I do and share my gratitude.


The Turning Point said...

Keep the optimism. The ups and downs means you're making progress.

We have the Reds farm team here.Great for the city.


Anonymous said...

Glad you're feeling good about things. Go Reds! Grew up in Kentucky and enjoyed following the Big Red Machine for as long as I can remember. Have a great weekend!!

Syd said...

I hope that things will get back on an even keel with your wife. Best of luck with your networking.