My friend Jingle hosts a wonderful Poetry blog at Jingle Poetry and each week we get together to write a piece on a theme provided by Jingle. This week, the theme is celebrations and festivities. I thought I might recall a thought process that was common to me for many years prior to my getting sober in AA nearly 15 years ago. Enjoy.
Heart races... "What if they don't have enough?"
Another successful trip to the liquor store
ensures I won't have to worry.
I won't run dry.
"Oh, I know it's not a problem, but isn't it?"
A good high to stat the day wears on into the afternoon
as I contemplate my couture for the gala party I won't recall in the end.
"Oh wait... I wasn't going to do this again was I?"
"Ahh well, off we go... It's set in motion and there's no turning back."
It's another New Year, more amateurish attempts at an all nighter mostly fail.
"I won't fail, in fact I 've already won."
"I've equippped myself for another great party and avoided talking myself
out of abstinence once again. I'l deal with the fallout beyond the fun.
Happy New Year, more of the same. When will it end?
I cannot say."