This has been one of those frustrating weeks where some accumulated debris has choked the stream of life and I'm spending a wee too much time focusing on the negatives in my life and not working to accept them and celebrate that which I am grateful for. Too much fear and anxiety, not enough peace and gratitude.
So, here's a written effort to do just that...
Today, I accept our financial picture, bleak as it is. Today I accept that I've over obligated myself to too many volunteer activities. I will fulfill my obligations and take on no new ones. Today, I accept that Christmas is coming in 14 days and I still have much to do to prepare. Today I accept that I need to continue to press on to find a better-paying job. Today I accept that I need to push myself to develop more real estate business. While I don't much care for any of these circumstances in my life right now, I must accept them or be driven mad by them. Today I accept that I am still more overweight than I had wanted to be at this point and I still have more weight loss to accomplish.
Today I am grateful to be sober and in reasonably good health. Today I am grateful to have lost 37 lbs since the start of the year. Today, I am grateful to have my real estate license and 4, almost 5 closed deals since getting busy this spring. Today, I am grateful to have a wife who supports me and loves me even though we continue to struggle financially. Today I am grateful to even have a job and be able to service our debt. Today I am grateful that I love the work I do and that it will lead to something more financially rewarding. Today I am grateful that I still have 14 days to get ready for Christmas. Today I am grateful that I have a family to enjoy Christmas and New Year's with. Today I am grateful that I am going to Mass and that I have AA metings to attend.
HP, thank You for the blessings in my life, I know that all good gifts come from you. I pray for the strength and grace to carry on just for today. I pray for my friend Kent who suffered a massive heart attack Weds and is not expected to live. Please be with his family, as this must be an awful time for his kids and wife. I pray that I may be of service to You by loving those around me. Show me You will and I will apply myself to it. Thank You for another sober day.