Wednesday, February 22, 2006

a wee bit 'o stress...

Financial insecurity will leave us... I keep hanging onto that promise/result as I struggle along in this job of mine... Ever since I got downsized outta my cushy industrial sales gig in Nov of 2003, I have really been in a bit of a professional funk. I was out of work for a few months, and the job I took (is the one I have now) is a commission only sales/mortgage gig. Well, when things are rolling along well, it's great. However, this time of year is slow and things have been really frustrating here. I've never really quit looking around for something better, even after I started here. I am grateful that I've been able to keep the house payments flowing on time, the car, and all the bills and so forth. But I have had to dig into some investments to keep things going during the slow stretches. All in all, I am slowly going backwards and the job market around here is not so hot. I am not one who handles limbo and uncertainty very well. My life (financially/professionally speaking) has been just that for the past 2+ years. The whole thing is really starting to wear on me.

I just wanted to share that!

Today I am grateful:

  • that I have been able to maintain our finances, even though we're headed backwards
  • for my sobriety, a daily gift from HP
  • that my wife has begun an official effort to quit smoking today
  • that I am able to be supportive of her effort, and hopefully patient with how she's going to be feeling
  • for my sponsee who came by my office today to go have lunch
  • that my dad's back surgery went well Monday
  • that it seems as if my meds are beginning to kick in
  • that I have this blog to come vent and share with other recovering peeps

5 comments:

Rex said...

hang in there and things will get better. At least that's what they keep telling me anyway.

Alexis said...

I quit smoking 3 months and 6 days ago, after 8 YEARS of smoking (five sober in AA). I'll keep your wife in my prayers. and your job stuff. I'll tell my HP to get with your HP and together I bet they can do some awesome stuff for you!

Tab said...

Sometimes we have to feel this kind of stress so to find a solution.
We learned to simplify .
You will find what works best for your situation,keep an open mind
and not be too hard on yourself.
Thanks for sharing!

Shannon said...

i read this the other day on another blogg


Page 11 in Conversations with God (Book 1) says:

"You will not have that for which you ask, nor can you have anything you want. This is because your very request is a statement of lack, and your saying you want a thing only works to produce that precise experience--wanting--in your reality.

The correct prayer is therefore never a prayer of supplication, but a prayer of gratitude.

When you thank God in advance for that which you choose to experience in your reality, you, in effect, acknowledge that it is there...in effect. Thankfulness is thus the most powerful statement to God; an affirmation that even before you ask, I have answered.

Therefore never supplicate. Appreciate."


thanks for sharing, I am there too.. and have my good days and bad days with it.. :)

dAAve said...

The only bad thing about being retired is the age that goes along with it. LOL

Thanks for stopping by recently. I too will try to stop by and post a comment when I have something really silly to pass along.