Tuesday, August 29, 2006

this too is passing...

So, we've managed to survive Monday without pissing off my wife, alienating any customers or vendors or getting drunk/stoned. All in all, a pretty successful day, I'd say. I didn't make it to the 12:30 meeting, too busy, but I had to lead a meeting last evening. It's funny.... I hate being in the dumpy crummies when I have to give a lead. But, by the time 8 pm rolled around, this too had passed and I was feeling a bit better. I've been sharing a lot on here about how important my emotional sobriety has become (mainly because I have actually had some for a consistent period of months here...). So, I tried my best last nite to transmit that in my message. Of course I had to give the obligatory "what it was like" portion of the talk but I tried to keep it brief so I could share more on "what happened, and even more on "what it's like now."

It is such a good feeling to know in my heart of hearts that no matter what happens, everything is going to be ok.. Everything is going to work out according to God's Will. As long as I try my best to align myself with God's Will, I will be ok too. I love having this place to come share, and read about how all of you are getting thru life a day at a time.... I wish I could express in words how much it has meant to me, meeting all of you... My life is forever changed, thank you all...

Prayer for the day...

God/HP, whew... (deep breath) I thank You for another sober day today, for decent health and a chance at becoming a better person. I thank You for all the tools You've laid at my feet thru AA, the Internet (thanks Al Gore...) and the various other means by which I receive Your Message. Thank You for using me last evening to transmit Your message of Hope. I feel as if I am getting a wee bit off track and disconnected so I am asking for Your help today in maintaining and nurturing our relationship. I pray that I have the strength to look harder for evidence that "You've been here..." throughout my day today. I pray that I may carry an attitude of gratitude and service into everything I do. Things at work have picked up (but certainly not enough, or quickly enough he he... I know, shut up Scott...) at work, and for that I am grateful. Please help me to remember that I am here to serve people, to give of my "expertise" and talents to help others better their lives. Compensation will come at Your discretion as long as I do the next right thing. I pray that I have and grow in the faith that everything in my life happens for Your reasons and that everything will be ok.

peace to y'all... and thanks for being my friends....

10 comments:

Lex-Sunshine said...

Peace be with you also! Sounds like you keep doing the next right thing : ) and it keeps getting better. I love to hear that!

Scott W said...

Offering your work day to your Higher Power will pretty much guarantee that the day will go as planned, that its purpose will be fulfilled and that you will stay sober today. Beautiful offering you made today, thanks for sharing it and insuring that my day goes better as well.

Tab said...

I Thank You too Scott :)
For all you share here..!

SCoUt said...

Thank YOU, Scott. You have given me so much in your blog that I am the one wihtout words for it.
I am so grateful for you.
Peace,
Scout

dAAve said...

told ya

Mary Christine said...

Glad to see you are feeling better.

Redhead Gal said...

Nice post.

Sober Chick said...

I have a sober sister that is not fond of speaker meetings becuz she said "I know how to get drunk and do drunk stuff." She wants to hear about the hope, what life is like today. So on behalf of her thank you :) Hehee.

As for me I feel in love with all the crap, hearing about the humiliation and despair -- it is like watching a drama show. With my mouth dropped, I say "that is me" when I hear about the shanangans pulled off during the drinking days.

In all, no matter what I always get something from hearing soneone's story. I love it! I am glad you are able to share your "what is't like now" -- this is very important becuz you have such a beautiful life! :)

And don't worry, being a handy man around the house is not what

lash505 said...

Yes, for me I don't want to do things so I become Mr. dumpie cumpie. But after I do what I am suppose to do I feel good. What??

Gwen said...

Scott I am with you on the emotional sobriety. How great. And surviving Monday without pissing off your wife? Priceless!