Friday, September 22, 2006

tgif, man

Well, finally putting the finishing touches on this refi loan. We ought to close early next week so, that's good. I aint making any money yet, but I can at least begin to reimburse myself for the cash I laid out to start this puppy up. Last loan got the branch into the black (barely), this one will get some cushion going. The best part really, is that I am hooking these people up big time... I am reducing their house payment by nearly 40% and getting them out of a nasty old adjustable rate mortgage to a nice low fixed rate. Groovy, I love that! It's funny, I spend so much of my time waiting for other people to do their jobs. All I need is for the surveyor to fax over the survey he has in his filing cabinet somewhere and I can schedule the closing. I have been waiting over 2 weeks for a local guy to make my big window sign... I have 7 customers out househunting... lol, it's all about the waiting and I suck at it lol. Ah well... Sheet happens... At least I got 7 househunters out there, that's better than having nothing going on at all, lol

Same old, same old on the home front... It seems as if everytime I say something, state an opinion, answer a request for my idea, I am met with an immediate disagreement. It's kinda funny, because she does it without even thinknig about what she's saying. It's like an instant reaction, lol. Other than being completely annoying, and making me feel like there's not much point in responding to any more requests for my ideas or opinions, it's kinda funny. How does a person go thru the day with such a sour, negative outlook? I have my moments, even a day or two here or there in the dumpy crummies, but man, to be sour for days on end, with an occasional "good" day sprinkled in once in awhile... Wow... I feel bad for her, and for me too lol. Ah well, patience is required there too... It's not like I am the finest example of tolerance, joy and peace there ever was. I am just glad I have taken the necessary steps to get right with myself and nearly everything in my life. Now, I gotta focus on being more accepting, tolerant, loving and forgiving of my wife, without becoming a doormat. I haven't been to Al-Anon in awhile. I know I need to get there, but it's tough to get an extra nite out of the house... I can at least add some Al-Anon lit to my reading...

prayer for today...

God/HP, thanks for keeping me sober another day! Help me have the right words today, whenI call Mark and wish him well on this anniversary of his dad's passing. Help me not over-react to my wife's (or anyone elses) moods today. I really am not required to get mad or annoyed... I really don't have to be anything but at peace, even when goofy stuff is going on. I pray that I may open my heart to this poosibility, and let You in. I pray that I may get out of myself today, and help someone else, in whatever manner I can. Please HP/God, help me to not hurt anyone today, help me be a positive force in my home.

peace to yall...

7 comments:

SCoUt said...

I have been thinking of you and your current struggles at home a lot, Scott. I have no real words of wisdom for you and wish I did. All I can say is that I hope you continue to share about it both here and with your sponsor because it's just too much to keep to yourself.
There was this sweet, sweet dude in an AA meeting last night who was talking about similar tings to yours. He touched me deeply and I thought--I bet that's what Scott is like in the flesh. I get so much from reading your blog. Thank you.
And you are very welcome for the candle, my bloggy friend.
Peace,
Scout

Tab said...

Scott, I do not attend Al-Anon meetings but I do read Al-Anon
lit'evey single morning with my
Codependency recovery lit.I love it!!
Keep on keeping on..
Thanks for sharing~

lash505 said...

Scoot, You are the refi man. The scoot is progress.

Mary Christine said...

I hope your weekend is good.

Rex said...

Hang tough dude....it's worth it in the end. Relationships are tough work and we being the sick people we are don't make that any too easy.. In the end the rewards will be great.....and as I hear all too often from everybody....this too shall pass.

Gwen said...

Scott I think it is great that your helping others thru your work.

On the home front I realized this past week that I would struggle with whoever it was I was living with. If I had a roomy it would be her. If I was younger it would be a parent, a sibling or even my best friend. I think it is just hard in general to live with others and then throw in the opposite sex and I REALLY struggle. So one day at I time I will try. Adding lit from alanon was suggested to me. We have one book and he's got it ;)

Thanks for your post and I hope your having a great weekend.

G~

Scott W said...

Have a great weekend, friend.