Wednesday, March 21, 2007

turkey sandwich

I just finished the most wonderful turkey sandwich! (I love lunchtime!) I had a heap of Healthy Choice turkey on Brownberry Oatnut Bread with a bit of lite mayo, salt and pepper. It was glorious! I sat here and ate it slowly, sipping a bottled water, enjoying the beautiful sunshiny day through my open office door and huge plate glass windows, listening to some great "low intensity" classic rock playing on my Sirius radio online. It's gotta be nearly 60 degrees, just perfect out. Here after I post, I am going to spend a little time in thoughtful prayer and meditation and then enjoy some fresh coffee as I blast through the paperwork and phone calls of the afternoon. I've got a nice "Pink Lady" apple sitting here staring at me for later this afternoon! Could it get any better?? Well, perhaps but I will take this day just as it is. Sometimes it just feels good to enjoy exactly what's happening at this moment. I so often forget to do just that so I am going to immerse myself in the moments of this afternoon and leave the rest to God.

Oddly enough, I am craving the gym. (don't tell anyone, I don't want to ruin my sedentary reputation!) I didn't get to go last nite so I am going to try to get over there after home group tonite. It's great that the Y is open until 10 pm during the week. I just can't haul my carcasse outta bed in the morning to get over there before work. I know MC is inspirational with her early morning runs and all, but I just can't do it, lol! God Bless ya MC, you go, girl!

A classic opportunity to really destroy my feeble morale was presented to me this morning. I had been emailing back and forth with my "friend" whose employ I left last year to start this business and he "happened" to tell me about the 6 loans he closed over the past couple days, and how "incredibly busy" he had been last month. Of course, that was more info than I needed based on the fact that back here in reality, things are awful for me (and everyone in the biz I have talked to) right now and his level of biz had nothing to do with what we were discussing in our e-mails. He tends to do a TON of BS-ing and talking and very little actual doing. That was the main reason I left his business, I couldn't take the constant lip service and BS from a supposed "close friend" as he preached to be. Now don't get me wrong, he's a good guy and all, and he doesn't mean any ill will but I know he's just saying that crap to make himself look good. I would be shocked if he had anywhere near the level of business he keeps describing to me. Maybe he does, maybe he doesn't. The important thing for me is to realize that it just doesn't matter whether he's doing well or not. I did get pretty pissed when I read his e-mail this morning but it passed. It had to pass, I have too much stuff to do in order to get my biz rolling to spend time getting upset over BS like that. So, I am grateful to AA, the Steps, you bloggers and HP for reminding me that I have enough on my plate, that I need not concern myself with other people's biz. It's just one of those classic moments where the alcoholic could've really gone berzerk this morning, had he not had a program to follow and an HP to ask for help. I thought I'd share it with y'all...

Prayer for today...

JC/HP/God... Thank You for such a glorious day and thank You in advance for the coming rain. Rain is no less glorious than sunshine! I pray for Your Will and Your Grace in my life, for my wife, son, family and friends. I especially pray for those out there still suffering with the disease of alcoholism and addiction. I pray for this country and the men and women who defend her today, wherever they may be. Thank You for helping out of a potential bad morning with the work related stuff. Things are not going as I'd like but I am quite convinced You know what You're doing. I only pray that I might accept things exactly as they are, and just enjoy this day, seeking to help others.

peace be with you all!


Lex-Sunshine said...

sounds like a great sandwhich and a great day! Hope you had a good time at the gym. I skipped last night too, and regret it today. : (

MC is amazing with that morning run, isn't she? Won't ever happen with my commute. : )

Noor Azman Othman GBE said...

I hope everything gonna be alright with you, Scott.

Happy Spring (I don't know about you but everybody is happy with Spring, I guess you must be too, hence the wish).

Mary Christine said...

Well, Mr. Scott, for your info, I ran AFTER work today and I felt like LEAD. It was awful. I am a morning energy person, and it sounds like you are an afternoon/evening energy person.

My realtor has had to get a "job" outside of real estate for the first time in over 20 years. It is bad all over.

Anonymous said...

I am glad I am not the only one hit with the health bug this spring

keep it going my buddy

lushgurl said...

Great post serene and thankful. You had me drooling for a turkey sandwich!
Stay positive, you inspire me!