relief

The sonogram came back with good news... No cancer, just a cyst that will go away in time. So, that's good. Thanks to those of you praying for my wife, it means alot... a very lot!

I just got back from my men's prayer group, we're working through the 4th Why Catholic workbook on prayer and it has been wonderful. We have a nice little informal group of guys, good sharing, petition prayers, Scripture reading and discussion, good stuff.

I was intending to head to the jail mtg this morning but my wife has some things she'd like to do today, which is great... I just wish she would sort of figure out what she's going to do and when. There's plenty of time for both of us to do what we need/want to do but she has this way of saying all this stuff she needs or wants to do, and then piddling around the house, going off on tangents of other little things, and tying up my schedule while I try to leave her time to do what she needs to do. Then, to make it even more fun, at the end of the day she complains about how she was somehow unable to get anything done that she wanted to. If I encourage her to sort of tell me when she's doing what, somehow I am being demanding and selfish, and trying to "schedule everything." So, today's gameplan, on the heels of a wonderul meeting about prayer and seeking God's Will, etc., I am going to do my very best not to impose my will on her, let her get nothing done, or something done who knows... but let her be where she needs to be, and not cop an attitude even though I think it's completely ridiculous and ends up messing with my entire day, lol. So far, I am not off to a very good start with the acceptance thing lol. but at least I am blogging and not giving her any grief... I hope I can keep my mouth shut.

This is called being married... I aint sure I am well suited for this...

prayer for today...

HP/God/JC, please help me stay sober today, and please help me to be patient with my wife and son. I am finding myself being less and less tolerant of her behaviour, some of which probably isn't good or right, but whom am I to judge, right? You know that my response to her behaviour certainly isn't top shelf. I pray that I might place my "needs" and BS wants in Your hands, that I might enjoy a peaceful day, without anger or intolerance. Thank You for the good news yesterday about her cyst, and that is is not cancerous. Thank You for my men's group, for the jail meeting that I will more than likely end up missing (oh, there I go bitching again...) and for all the blessings in our lives.

may the peace of Christ be with you all...

ps- funny thing, she just walked in here to tell me to go on to the jail mtg, she has no clue how her day will unfold... Why am I still annoyed by all this? I just got my way, lol. I tried to give her the leeway to get all her things done and she said to go on and go so, I guess I will. I will never understand, probably don't need to... I think I need an Al-Anon meeting lol.

It is a Spiritual Axiom that whenever we are disturbed, no matter what the problem is, the problem lies within us... It's not exactly the quote, but it's in Step 10, and I believe it! It's up to me to make my own happiness!