Yesterday, my wife and I went to our first counseling session. I've never been to see a counselor or anything like that so I was unsure what to expect. We talked about a lot of stuff and we've decided to continue going every couple of weeks for awhile and see what happens. It was sort of difficult to call to mind and disucss our issues since we've been changing behaviours and attitudes over the past month and things are going much better between us. But, I think that's the trap really. We "get feeling better" and slide back into our old patterns and then have another blow up worse than the last. With this counselor, we can keep our issues in front of us and continue to work on them, with some accountability to someone outside our marriage.
Sobriety still remains job one, for both of us. We've always had very seperate programs with no "overlap" where we share any of each other's program components. We've begun attending meetings together and talk a bit about sobriety stuff more than we used to. That has been an interesting change. All of this stuff is emotionally tiring so we'll have to be careful of expectations and so forth but at least we're headed in a better direction, with help this time.
God, thank You for this day, this blank slate. I am grateful to You for continuing to remove my obsessions to practice addictive behaviours. Without You I'd be drunk, high, smoking and all sorts of awful. I know that everything good in my life comes though You and has come as a result of living the AA principles a day at a time. Please be with my wife and son and me as we work on our marriage and family. Please be with our neice Natalie as she works through her rehab. Please bless the people in Haiti and the people working so hard to rescue them. Please use me today for Your good works. I pray that I can align ym thoughts and my actions with Your plan.