I'm headed to Columbus this morning for a day and a half conference for Chamber of Commerce Executive Directors. Sounds fun, huh? I've packed my beanie hat (with the propeller on top) and my whoopie cushion so I should be ready to run thru the halls of the hotel and act like a schoolboy lol. Actually, it'll be a good networking event and I hope to get with some successful chamber directors and get some good ideas to bring back to my little corner of the world. Plus it will be a nice little diversion from the normal routine.
After I am done Friday my wife is driving down to pick me up then we're off to West Virginia for the weekend for her dad's birthday. So, this whole weekend will be a nice getaway and should prove to be restful. Of course now that I don't have all the stress and insanity of my former job at the bank, I get more out of these weekends. The last time we stayed with her cousin in Charleston, I spent most of the time trying to work on my loans long distance, online and it wasn't pretty at all. I am so grateful to be out of that rat race.
I just want to be a better person today. I am glad I don't have any major "rehabilitative" issues going on any more. I am not quitting smoking, I am not detoxing or rehabbing. I am not weeks away from my last drunk. I am in "maintenance and growth mode" today. I recall the early days of recovery because I see newcomers at meetings. I don't even want to go back to those days and that's part of how I stay sober today. Newcomers remind me that it isn't any better out there than when I stumbled in 14 years ago. Today I can offer my hand, my experience, my hope that they too, a day at a time can get to a place where its all about the "maintenance and growth."
That's not to say I can afford not to be in meetings regularly. That's not to say I don't have to have a spritiual program AND a fellowship, "face to face" program. I cannot afford to rest on my laurels as they discuss on the Big Book. My disease is still my disease and I still have it. I am not cured, I am merely alot better than I once was and I am no longer actively addicted and using (Thank God).
Today, its simple for me... God, please continue to remove my obsession to drink. I pray that I open myself to Your Will, that I might receive and transmit Your Grace today. Thank You, for I know that all the good in my life comes from You and is a result of my sobriety.