Tuesday, August 10, 2010

re connecting

It's band camp week! Yesterday was awesome, it felt great to be there with the kids! It was hot and sunny, very much so up on top of the new tower that was built for the band director to get up above the band. The kids worked hard and I felt 20 years younger, like I was back at college again.

I "gave away" my band director/teaching career as a result of my drinking and drug use. I could've probably stuck with it, but I copped out, felt like I had betrayed my profession by teaching while high there at the end. So, I blew it all off and went another way. I lost all contact with my close-knit network of friends, fellow musicians and teachers.

This week is a long overdue return to the profession sober. It's as if part of me is slowly being reconnected, restored if you will. I am doing what I was meant to do. I don't think a career in teaching is the answer, going forward. However, I'm teaching now, and will continue to do so as long as they will have me and I can work it into my schedule.

I feel really alive and "part of the stream of life" this week! For me, teaching and working with kids is a spiritual experience.


drybottomgirl said...

Awesome for you! I'm sending you a "high five" right now...life has it's moments doesn't it :)

Carol said...

That's so great to hear. Even with my growth in Alanon, it somehow took me back to enjoying things from my teen years. Before I got grown and 'sponsible! Stuff like tennis and writing.

Syd said...

Sounds really good. I am glad that you are back doing what you love with your music and teaching.