Friday, August 05, 2011

indulge and pay

It's been a hectic week, getting back in the groove and all but we've arrived at another Friday evening! We've had little rain here in Ohio and I had to tie back my tomatoes better now that they are LOADED with green fruit. So, I just finished spending some relaxing time getting my hands dirty, bent over re-staking tomatoes and watering my neglected gardens.

I'm disappointed in myself, I gave in to a craving today and had chinese buffet for lunch. I've been getting back on my diet program and adding exercise now, trying to work off the final 35 lbs or so and I'd gotten pretty well back into a good groove after vacation. Dammit, if I didn't give in and go indulge big time. No sense crying over spilled milk, and perhaps I'll be reminded of how awful I feel when I eat that stuff. I didn't do the rice, and I ate mostly protiens and veggies, but I know it's all pretty bad for me to be eating. I have to say that I did enjoy it, and I ate a pretty fair amount (buffet and all) lol.

This weekend I am camping with Ian and a few of the boys from my Webelos den (Cub Scouts). The food will be fairly spartan, so it won't be tough to get back on track. But, I do regret doing that today. And I was so flippin' tired this afternoon, OMG. I'll just have to work it off hiking and doing activities with the boys lol. That'll be my penance!

The whole episode reminded me of my efforts to quit smoking, and also when I was sobering up. It's all the same damn mental obsession, and maybe that's why I am so bummed that I caved in today. Ah well, something to remind me that I'll never be entirely rid of my alcoholic, addictive tendencies. So I suppose it was a relatively safe reminder of that, at the least!


Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

I know the feeling, that mental obsession that does pop up in other ways the tendancy for self-comforting and self-indulgence :)

Have fun campin with the Webelos!!! :)

Syd said...

Don't beat yourself up too badly. You will get back on track. Enjoy the time hiking and eating camp food. All that is fun!
BTW, I love Chinese!