I've been sort of "training" myself to get up early each day, while the house is still quiet and get some praying, blogging and working time in. Its amazing how much can be done before the rest of my peeps are up and around. Its also nice to take the time to work on me. This morning time really sets up my day, helps me get my head on straight. For years, I have been one to get up, dash through the shower, slurp down some coffee on my way out the door and race off into the madness of my day. Now, my day still has crazy stuff in it, but it requires less madness. Thats pretty kool!
I can see why I have been hearing people in meetings for years talking about how much they treasure their emotional sobriety and serenity. Its not that I haven't had any over the past 10 years, but what I have now is different. Maybe I have more of it, I don't know. Maybe its the fact that my thyroid levels are where they ought to be now, or its the Zoloft. Perhaps the extra meetings. It could be the exercise and much better eating habits I have worked on. I am guessing its a combination of all of these, brought together by a faith in my HP that no matter what, "it" will be okay. After all, it IS my HP that gives me the strength to make these changes in my life!
All I know is that I want this to continue so I am going to do this again today, and hopefully tomorrow.
"The most important decision I ever made is the decision I made to give up drinking. Can I ever afford to forget this, even for one minute?" -January 6th 24 Hours a Day
Thankfully, my first sponsor suggested that I read January 6th over and over, daily. That one suggestion has probably had the single biggest impact on my sobriety (of all the billion little things!!). I am so grateful HP had him suggest that to me. It saved my life. I am forever grateful! There is a section of the reading that talks about disciplining oneself to live God's will. It just dawned on me as I post here, that thats exactly what I have been doing. I h ave been disciplining myself to live rightly, just like the reading said I should do. "Today I will discipline myself..."
Its amusing how things come full circle. That reading has become so ingrained in me, such a part of my recovery. Thats why its so important to pratice recovery behaviors over and over. They become as a part of us as our drinking and drugging was. Thats how we truly recover.
I like these early morning epiphanies. But, I have to dash through the shower and race out the door now! (gotcha, just joking!)
I can hear the birdies chirping, spring is in full swing, thanks HP!