Ok, I am pretty excited! Today I have an opportunity to change my behavior! We're flying to phoenix this afternoon and one of the things my wife enjoys least about me is how (how shall we put this?? hmmmm) intense I get when we fly anywhere. I shared about this the other day, but I better get this in my sights again cuz today, the rubber meets the road. I am going to try my very best to Let Go and Let God all day long, every inch of the way (without having any expectations of my performance here he he). I am really going to try to just wear the day like a loose garment. I am not going to stress over anything, I am going to have fun and just relax. She might just pass out if I pull this off. (oh, and if I mess up, I am not going to beat myself up!)
I have just developed this anxiety, this stress where I get all pissy and bitchy as we prepare for a big trip like this. And so of course, it makes the whole departure thing a living hell for my travelling companions. Now, in all fairness to me, my wife has her own brand of stress she goes through, but I know I am worse. She stuffs her feelings, I bitch and moan, which makes her really, really unhappy. Funny thing is, nothing ever really goes wrong (I am too anal to allow that, hehe). And, once we pull back from the gate, I just get this rush of relief like, ok we're ready, blah blah blah. So, I am going to just go with the flow, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS TODAY! If I find myself starting to flip, I will take a deep breath, find my HP, say the SP and recall the meeting yesterday. Most of all, if she gets bent and twisted, I am going to let her go where she goes... and not follow down the dark path behind her (man am I good for some of that, geeeze).
We'll be back home on Tuesday the 26th but, I think I will have internet access with my laptop while we're there. Her brother has AOL high speed internet so, I am taking my wireless router and hooking up! We'll see if it works or not, no expectations! Anyhow, if I poof for a couple weeks, you'll know that didn't work out he he!
prayer for the day:
God, help me not be a big ole self centered goofball today. Help me make this a pleasant trip by being kind, considerate, thoughtful, patient and loving today. (yes, I have to remind Him to remind me of all these things, he he!!)
that we found a great place to board Cosmo
opportunities for growth
that incredible meeting yesterday
bloggage and all my best friends on here
that I can do some work while we're in AZ
(ok, I am projecting now, he he)
as my 4 yr old lil guy says: "today is arizona day!" he is soooo freaking adorable, thanks HP!