Tuesday, June 20, 2006

playing again...

Awhile back, I had mentioned that I was playing my horn again, in church. Well, as a result of that, I played in church with the gentleman who runs a local big band (dance band: Glenn Miller, Duke Ellington, etc.). He needed a trombone player to sit in for his lead later on this summer so, I have been attending rehearsals over the past couple months. Well, he has got me playing on several upcoming gigs, and in fact, I am getting calls from a couple other guys around to come play in their bands. I am pretty surprised by all of this as it has been several years since I played professionally and I am feeling kinda rusty. But, it does make me feel good that I have somehow created an interest from other people in having me play. (I know, here comes the ego!!!) I am really glad to be playing again... This is one thing I have really struggled with in recovery. I quit playing altogether out of some stwisted sense of guilt, that I had betrayed my noble teaching profession (which I certainly had) and the whole idea of playing again just wasn't good for a long time. Because we got married (because of HP/AA) I met the music director at the Cathlolic church, got to talking about how I went to school for muic, etc. he invited me to play in Mass, and so forth... HP doing for me what I could in no way do for myself. I am grateful.

Even crazier... I have (after much soul searching, deliberation, stress and so forth) finally come to the decision to join the Roman Catholic Church this fall when they begin RCIA classes. If only you knew me before I got sober, you would be shocked... I had such contempt for church goers and organized religion. But hey, that's another post...

peace!

9 comments:

Lex-Sunshine said...

Its amazing to see what an HP can do through you!! : ) Keep on keepin' on and share that music you have inside you : )

Sober Chick said...

Is playing the horn again like riding a bike? You never forget, but need to polish up. :)

Looks like your HP has offered this event on his time. Isn't taht amazing how his time works!

Trudging said...

Yep, it sounds like God to me.

dAAve said...

lotsa progress - on both counts.

... and if playing the horn is like riding a bike again, may we assume that you'll attach the horn TO your bike?

Mary Christine said...

Yay! I am also a Roman Catholic... I left the church for 25 years, and came back when I was 7 years sober. Welcome!

BigSkymAAck said...

Well HP probably gave you the gift for music to start with now he wants to listen too. Your path is so cool. I am not Roman Catholic but I understand the quest we go on after we start working our program. All sorts of things change.

Shannon said...

i AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! playing in a band, didnt know you where so talented.. my son is trying to play the trombone... and all he does is make a BIG loud noise... LMAO thank God for the silencer... and head phones for him and us

I sooo know what you mean about church and I am excited for you... I too was against church goers and I am a new Christian... I will save that for a nother post someday ... :)

Scott W said...

Don't ever feel guilty for your talents. They are God given.

Scott said...

yeah, you're exactly on point Scott... my guilt comes form the abuse of my talents, how I let my skills atrophy, how I discraced my teaching profession and gifts by my alcoholic/addicitve behaviors.. That shame and guilt kept me away from my music for years...