Sunday, August 26, 2007

sometimes it happens

I knew this month was going to be very busy, and it has. This week, I have been especially bitchy around the house what with all the cleaning, packing, moving, organizing, unpacking etc involved with closing down my office. As I awoke yesterday and got ready to head to my AWESOME men's prayer group at church it dawned on me that I hadn't been to an AA meeting since August 11th, two Saturdays prior. My Wed nites (home group nite) have been chewed up by the some of the extra things I have been doing this month. Well, no wonder we've had an extra layer of jack-ass! It's not to say that I cannot be in a good place without meetings but I can tell ya it sure helps this alcoholic to have a consistent exposure to the program that doesn't come only from my own mind! Amazingly enough, yesterday was a much less edgy, bitchy day after hitting prayer group and the jail meeting. Thankfully, I am immersed in alcoholics so I am never out of contact or completely disconnected. But, I am one of those who really benefits from regular attendance at AA meetings. Church is great and church related activities, classes, Mass and all that are simply (for me) no replacement for a good old butt-kickin AA meeting! I am grateful to still have that outlook after 11+ yrs sober. I still enjoy meetings, and still benefit from attending them! But, sometimes I forget and get too busy...

Well, I am beginning to get excited and anxious! My new career begins on Tuesday morning at 11am. I begin training for the new bank job. We start off in their dowtown Dayton regional HQ in a big tall bldg doing some sort of training. After a few days of that, I have to shadow a loan officer for awhile, then it's off to New Jersey for 4 days of loan product training. I am not so much anxious for the training (although I love to learn) as I am to just get out there and get some loans closed. I love helping and meeting people, and of course, I do enjoy earning money! It's scary, exciting, a little intimidating but it's all good. One of the koolest things is that I got to buy some new, really nice dress clothes at a great men's clothing store. That was a wonderful experience!

placing myself in God's presence...

God, thank You for my sobriety. Everything in my life depends upon me staying sober and drug free. Thank You for AA, without it I wouldn't be sober, know my wife or have my son. Thank You for Your Son and Your Church. Thank You for welcoming me with open arms, and calling me to spread Your Good News to the youth of our parish, through CCD. I pray that I maintain an attitude of gratitude for everything today. It's alot harder to focus on the things I am not so fond of, when I focus on all that I have to be grateful for. It's just that simple! I pray that I am ready for this new chapter in my professional life, that I take time over the next couple of days to get myself prepared spiritually, mentally, physically.

may the peace of Christ be with you all!

4 comments:

Shannon said...

LOL I can relate to getting a little ansy when I have not attended meetings myself... Its sounds too like you have a lot going on that could be also contributing.
I am glad you are excited I would be too.
Have a great Sunday Scott

Pam said...

I get confused after I've missed too many meetings...I need to be reminded how to live. Being around other people who are doint the "deal"...helps me remember too.

Mary Christine said...

I really have to go to meetings or I get wack-a-doo. And I am grateful for that, it keeps me going to meetings.

Inmatez Wife said...

when i cant make them, the blogs help me so much. They pull me through. Glad you are good. Glad you are doing the jail meetings, they really help those in there. Good luck with the new job!!