Tuesday, August 18, 2009

all good things come to an end...

And so do the "less than pleasant things..."

It appears that today will be my last "full day" at the bank. Tomorrow my boss comes to collect my stuff, I turn in my keys and I am a free man. Hopefully, that will occur early in the day lol. I have one more day of "hiding" in my office, avoiding the phone and acting "as if" all's right with the world. Needless to say I feel like a kid at Christmas... well Christmas Eve anyway. I jsut really have difficulty knowing what I know, and acting as if. I feel just a little guilty for leaving so much work, so many loans for my boss. I feel a little bad for leaving my bankers without a full time mortgage loan officer. But, I have no intentions of beating myself up. This is business, this is taking care of Scott and his family and this is without question, what I need to do right now. I NEED to get out of this industry as it is passing me by at a rapis pace. I am just not able to keep up with all the changes, the stress and the nonsense. (not especially for the payday that comes as a result of all that)

I don't begin my gig with the Chamber "officially" until August 31st, but since I am out of the bank so soon, I will take a week or so to get my head together and get through some projects around here. Plus, I will need some new coture. My work clothes were all bank apparel, with their logos and name all over it. (typical big corporation lol) Then, I will start probably next Wed or Thursday to get in there early and get going. I want to grab some much needed decompression time for my head and my nerves. Hell, just being in the bank gets me wrapped tighter than a drum head most days, yesterday and today being no different.

I am so blessed to have a suportive and understanding wife and an HP that really took me His direction (and yes, I did try to louse that up too lol). I am grateful that in the end I went on faith and will continue to just go on faith, while doing my very best to do the next right thing and do the groundwork in front of me.

peace to you all...

4 comments:

Mike Golch said...

We all need to do what is best for us,even if it means changing jobs to do so.

dAAve said...

I'll stay tuned.

Susan M DeAngelis said...

I said wrote this on my blog just this morning, feelings are temporary not permanent.

Great entry; thanks for sharing.
:)
Sue

Steve E. said...

and life goes on