It had been awhile since I shared my story at a meeting. HP really "hooked me up" last night so to speak. It felt wonderful to recount my active alcoholic/drug addiction experiences, and even more wonderful to share some of the changes and miracles brought about in my life through the practice of AA's 12 Steps. I marvel at the changes in me since coming to AA. I can almost hardly believe I lived the way I did back then, and become such a mess and "shell" of a person. But it happened, I was a mess, I lived poorly, treated myself an others horribly. Thankfully that's long behind me, provided I continue practicing the principles of AA in my daily life.
It's important (I believe) for us to share what it was like, what happened, and what it's like now. I cannot afford to forget where I've come from. And every now and then it's good to go back there, lest we forget. I've heard often times in meetings, from the mouths of oldtimers that "if we cannot recall our last drunk, we probably haven't had it yet." I pray I never forget. Giving my lead is one way of keeping that memory fresh in my mind.
Today I get to do something new, as my "first official" whizbang as Chamber Director. I get to get on the radio and give my bi-monthly report on what's happening in our area. I have to call in and talk to the morning show guy and have a chat about what's up. I am kind of nervous and my ego is just dying to get all out of whack over this lol. Small town living does have it's egotistic pitfalls! It seems like lately, every time I go out, someone's telling me "congrats," "great choice," and "good luck," having heard about my job change in the paper or on the radio. For a somewhat "reclusive by nature" alcoholic, it's a little unnerving. I love people, and love being out in the community, but there's still a part of me that wants to run and hide. That's something that should improve with this job. I will be out in the community all the time, that's the gig now!
I hope everyone has a great day today!