Well, part of the reason for the short post this morning is that my wife wandered in and stood there staring at my computer screen as I was posting. So, I wrapped it up.
A little while later, we had it out... She backed me into a corner at 6:30 in the morning and I came out swinging. It wasn't the best solution but I'm tired of all of this, and I am upset. It was ugly, it was loud and I aired my feelings about everything, in a not very friendly manner. I'll spare you the details, they don't really matter anyhow. Ian was all crying and upset out in the living room, so she went to calm him down, then I took my turn with him after she talked to him, trying to make it very clear to my 8 yr old son that mommy and daddy aren't behaving like mommies and daddies are supposed to and that he's done nothing wrong and that we both love him very much. I assume that her conversation went much the same way.
A few moments later as they were sitting in the kitchen, she calmly (almost as if nothing had happened) told me she is planning to call Father and see him, call her doc, and a counselor. (I basically had to yell at her "to get some ****ing help, I am tired of making suggestions and telling you this... Go get well!" So, now she's all about doing that all of a sudden. I won't hold my breath.
I don't know what to do really. I probably shouldn't be putting all this stuff out here but I am just so full of hurt, anger, resentment. It helps to get it out. And it is after all, anonymous at least. I had lunch today with one of my AA peeps, talked with my step mom, etc. I told my wife we could talk this weekend. Now, she wants to talk lol. I am pretty much done with talking. I need space, I need to heal, I need time and I think I need to just be done. I don't know. Evidently she's called a counselor today and made an appt with Father for tomorrw for herself. I hope it helps her. I think I am expected to be all relieved or something. I am not even remotely impressed to be honest... A little surprised, but not too excited.
Please pray for peace for us.