I love this time of year, plain and simple! I love spring and early summer and I love late summer and early fall. And I love midsummer. I guess it would've been simpler to say that I don't enjoy winter so much! I love being able to step outside and smell our lilacs, our cherry blossoms, my freshly cut weeds, um lawn. I love the ping of aluminum baseball bats and the rainy breezes of this time of year. It's so easy for my soul to find solace during these times. Stepping outside (all pollen related allergies aside) is a real blessing this time of year for this alcoholic.
Natalie (my wife's 20 something niece who's struggling mightly with alcoholism and addiction)called outta the blue last nite. She's on another pink cloud, having come off of a bad OD experience last week that culminated in a 3 day ICU hospital stay. She's full of excuses on why AA is no good and it's tough to tell if she's speaking much in the way of truth these days. Her parents have been forced to really cut the cord and eliminate contact with her since all she does is fleece them, lie to them and hurt them. So I think maybe we're getting the call now out of guilt and loneliness on her part. All my wife and I can do is pray for her so, please remember one extra struggling young lady in your prayers. I pray that someday she finally surrenders and is ready to do anything to stay sober. She might just be consitutionally incapable of being honest with herself.
I called my dad last night, as yesterday was his 21st AA anniversary. He hasn't been to a meeting in years, and drinks the occasional NA beer on a hot summer day but it seems to be working for him. We're not as close as I'd like but it turns out that we're two very different people in some important ways. And, he married into a family that has really put a strain on our relationship and that causes drama where my wife is concerned. So today, rather than getting all hurt and acting the fool like in years past, I can accept all of this and be at peace with my life and myself, and enjoy my dad as much as these things will allow. It's a decent arrangement andmuch more peaceful than it used to be.