Thursday, July 29, 2010


I'm sober today. If I am sober, I have a chance at a good life. Everything good in my life has come as a result of God's gift of sobriety. I have to remind myself of this simple truth. I must guard against negative thinking, self doubt, self centerendess and dishonesty. The best way I know to guard against negativity and self centeredness is to help others.

I've often shared here that I believe I owe a debt. I was a taker for many year, and I still am to some extent today. Now, I've gotten alot better since coming into AA 14 years ago. My first sponsor pounded this notion into my head: "sobriety is the most important thing in my life." I quickly learned that the best way to keep my sobriety is to share it with another alcoholic. Over the years in AA, I've sponsors some guys, talked and worked and shared with many folks and I have to say that my success rate has been 100%. I have stayed sober a day at a time since coming into AA exactly 14 and a half years ago yesterday.

Today, I must work with others. I must give of myself with no expectation of anything in return. I am still self centered by nature, I'm just much better at getting out of myself. When I see and feel myself getting uncomfortable or stressed, or upset... I know what to do, work with someone else and give of myself. Thankfully, my life today involves volunteer work and giving. it's part of my day so I don't even have to decide anymore, I just have to realize and be grateful.

Today, the best thing I can do for my recovery is to get out of myself, seek God's will and find someone I can help and share with.


dAAve said...

These are the things that I know I must do. And remember.

Syd said...

Thanks for this Scott. I find that service work really helps me to quell the fear. Congrats on your 14 years one day at a time.