Yesterday was one of those "I don't wanna be in a good mood" days lol. Amazing after such an affirmation the day before, huh? That's how it goes, more proof that this trip is really a One-Day-At-A-Time deal. We got a nice dump of heavy wet snow that I had to shovel before getting out to the office. (for the record, I HATE shoveling snow lol) It took me 90 minutes and much cursing under my breath.
I had a day where I knew I needed to get a TON of stuff done since I had been in meetings all week and at a conference last Thursday and Friday. Suffice it to say I was way behind! So, I had that "hurry up" mentality that can only result in needless stress, mistakes, impatience and ultimately frustration. And that's how much of the day went until I made myself slow down in the afternoon. I stopped what I was working on, popped Nat King Cole's rendition of "Stardust" on the CD player, closed my office door, closed my eyes and just existed with Nat and Hoagy Carmicheal for 4 minutes.
I've always had difficulty slowing my mind without outside assistance. Nat always helps me slow down, relax and be at peace. It worked again this time and I got a lot done at work and when I got home, despite the madness taking place there lol.
At any rate, this alcoholic still has to stop himself and just slow down and re-focus. So if you're new to sobriety and your mind is racing, it's wise to learn how to slow yourself down. I have to avoid hurry, indecision, judgement of others, anger and a whole litany of things if I want to live a peaceful sober existence.
This morning I feel better, so off we go! That too did pass...