decisions

Today was the first day back to work since 12/22/11.  I did go in for a couple hrs Fri morning, and also met with my outgoing board president for lunch but it was low-key, hardly counted as work.  After all the travel, I could've used another day or two to get more organized and rested at home but it did feel good to get back to being more busy and "on task" so to speak.

I've never been one for resolutions, so I don't have that to share with you.  But, I have made couple decisions that should have a positive impact on my life in 2012.  I am back on my diet, effective yesterday.  I gained a little weight (not nearly as much as I thought I might) between Thanksgiving and Christmas, so it's time to hunker down and blow off another 40 to 50 lbs.  (I had lost about 50 lbs in 2011)  So, that's one decision, and I am on my way.

The other decision I've made is to scale back my "extemporaneous obligations. " I am spread way too thin.  I decided this fall that I wouldn't return for another year with our high school marching band in 2012.  I've also decided that I will not return to coach little league baseball this spring/summer.  This YMCA basketball team may be the last one I coach.  Those are difficult decisions because I love them both so much.  But, I am way too busy, and way out of balance.  And once I get this new job, I am going to have to really narrow my focus down to include Rotary, work, Scouts and religious ed.  If I get the new job, I'll probably have to drop religious ed as well.  I am also looking for help with my Webelos den from some of the other adults so I can relieve that burden as well.

I love giving to my community, and working with youth.  I love to teach and coach.  I can still help out once and awhile, but I cannot continue to commit to being "the guy."  Being sober is all about learning balance.  I've figured out how much is too much and now it's time to be true to Scott (and my family) and reduce my committments to a manageable level.  I've been praying and reflecting on this as I prepare to take the new job (assuming they offer it to me).  I want to be able to give them 110%+ once its time to begin.

I am grateful that AA taught me the importance, value and benefit of service.  I got really busy for a few years in the AA service structure serving as GSR and as an area officer.  I learned that I don't always play well with others, and I learned that I don't have to be everything to everyone.  Through service work, I am now much better at being a part of a team and being a servant.  I spent so much of my life taking and living just for me that I've developed this belief that "I owe."  So, over the past few years, I've been giving back.  Now its time to find that balance between work, family and community.

Thank God I have AA, HP and you folks to help me with these decisions.