Wednesday, March 14, 2012

trudging

The push is on!  I got the call Monday afternoon I'd been waiting for...  I have an interview next Thursday for the bank opportunity.  I had been doing research and studying some since I learned of the opportunity.  But now, it's "go time" which means much more reading, studying and reacquainting myself with all things mortgage lending.  I've been out of the loop for the past 2 and a half years, but with over 8 years lending experience it all comes back quickly.  This looks to be an amazing opportunity and I'm commited to winning this one.  This is the third major career position I've made a run at since October.  Each time I come closer to "being the one." They say the third time is the charm, right?  I was really close on the last one, and this one is in my field of expertise.

Ever since the experience with my mom and her cancer surgery, I've been sort of "numb" and emotionally distant within myself (if that makes any sense at all).  We had a really tough day as we came close to losing her coming out of surgery, and I just don't know if I've processed all that.  I didn't really react much to the amazing news that she is cancer free.  Doesn't that seem odd?  I just wonder if somehow I've shut down parts of myself or something?  I've never been through that before and I think it really threw me for a loop.

My prayer life has been a struggle and I seem to have gone into a bit of a holding pattern or cocoon.  Thankfully I have been to plenty of meetings and I am aware that I am not on my "A" game.  I think this is one of those patches where you put one foot in front of the other and trudge forward through the stuff.  Right now, I am trying to press myself to stay connected with HP as best I can.  The weekend pace was good, I relaxed, enjoyed an amazing lead by my sponsee at my wife's home group 30th anniversary and I am feeling somewhat less harried.

It's all a process, each day.  Today is a day where I know how I feel, I have a goal and a plan.  It's time to focus, execute and involve HP at the most primal, basic level of everything I do.  But, I must always keep in mind that it's necessary to make a plan, but impossible (and foolhardy) to plan the outcome.

5 comments:

Furtheron said...

The doldrums we often call them here in the UK - named after the areas in the big oceans where there is little wind - so sailors could sit for days waiting for any wind to make headway again.

Re the lending - isn't it easier these days? Is in the UK - you want to buy a £150,000 start home *smile like a shark* Have you got 20% cash deposit? That is £30,000 cash right now? Oh you only earn £20,000 a year how are you supposed to save that up? Not my problem - NEXT! :-)

SoberMomRocks said...

This one is yours!!! I just KNOW it! Visualize yourself in the role and your family financially back on track and this job is yours.

Good luck on the interview and keep us all posted! Maybe this is what you need to jump start your "A" game!

Sherry

Marcia said...

Good luck on the interview! I know what you mean about just putting one foot in front of the other. Sometimes that is all I can muster. Thanks for taking the time to comment so thoughtfully on my blog. I appreciate it very much.

Elizabeth said...

Great post! I can relate to that emotional distance.

I wish you the best with this job opportunity. It sounds like you are well-qualified!

Syd said...

Glad that you have the interview. I hope that it will go well for you. Your HP will take care of you no matter what.